A childhood is not reversible

childhood social transition

Childhood social transition is portrayed as ‘kind’ and ‘affirming.’ But what are we setting a child up for when puberty hits, if we pretend they are the opposite sex for the best part of their childhood? A clinical psychologist, with over 15 years of experience of working with adults, children and families, explains the inevitable consequences.

A childhood is not reversible

It was when it happened the third time in a week that I started to really wonder. The parent would be telling me about their teenager, about their mental anguish, suicidal thoughts and self harm, and then they’d drop something in, so casually that I’d almost think I’d missed it, ‘Oh, and he’s a transboy (or girl), transitioned when he (or she) was five (or six or seven), but that’s all fine’. And with that, I knew I’d been warned off. Nothing to see here.  

I’m a psychologist, my job is to explore, to look for meaning. I work with families and young people. I try to understand why people behave and feel the way they do and to share that understanding. I ask uncomfortable questions sometimes, particularly of parents, about how everyone’s behaviour in the family is inter-related and how children can sometimes show the distress for the whole family. Usually I’m curious about any big change in a child’s life. I’d ask, so how did that happen? What was going on about that time? How was that decision made?  

Not with this though. I can’t really ask about their gender identity for fear of being seen as transphobic, and of being accused of practicing conversion therapy. I’m meant to celebrate their trans identity, use the preferred pronouns and definitely not ask any questions at all about what this might mean. I know what is expected of me.

These children’s stories started years before, and I know that because I saw some of it happening on Facebook. Distant Facebook friends would say things like “We’ve known for a while this day was coming. But today we took the plunge. The barber cut Joanna’s hair and we have thrown out her old clothes. We welcome Joseph to our family!’ accompanied by a picture of a beaming 4-year-old with short hair wearing a Spiderman t-shirt. So easy to do for a four-year-old. Cut or grow their hair and no one will know the difference, and anyone who raised any concerns would be told that it’s ‘Fully reversible, it’s just clothes and pronouns! No one is medically transitioning children! Stop the moral panic!’

So now Joanna is Joseph, and they live their childhood. Everyone is told to call them ‘he’ and they shop in the boy’s section of the supermarket clothes aisle. They play football and their mother posts muddy pictures captioned ‘Boy through and through!’ to be met with a stream of comments about what a great parent they are and how lucky Joseph is and how much of a boy he is. If Joseph likes dolls or hangs out with the girls or even likes to wear dresses that’s just him breaking gender stereotypes or showing his sensitive side. Joseph spends his childhood being affirmed as a boy every hour of his life.  Anyone who has any qualms keeps quiet, because they know that they will be blocked and cast out immediately.

Except that Joseph is a boy with a secret. Before transition, Joanna was a girl who sometimes wanted to be a boy, and this was out in the open, everyone could talk about it. Now Joseph is treated as a boy, but there’s something different about him and lots of people don’t know this. He knows it, his parents know it, but people aren’t allowed to mention it or ask him how he feels about it. If they do, they’re transphobic. 

Joseph has a choice and neither of his options are good. Either he pretends there’s nothing different even though he can see there is in the boys’ toilet every day, or he gets increasingly distressed about the fact that everyone is telling him he is a boy, he lives in the world as a boy – but he doesn’t actually have the body of a boy. Usually this is too much for him to deal with and so he blocks it out. He disconnects from his body.

Joseph is in a really difficult position. The different facts in his life don’t add up. The adults in his life are telling him that he is a boy, but he can see that he doesn’t have the body of other boys. He will often completely refuse to talk about this. This is interpreted as a sign of his gender dysphoria – he won’t even look at or acknowledge his genitals. His parents will say that they can’t mention it, as he’ll get so upset.  

Sometimes his parents will tell him stories about how when he grows up he will be able to have surgery and acquire a penis, and because he is a child he believes them utterly, and dreams of the day that he will no longer have to deal with the dissonance between what his family and friends tell him that he is, and the body he knows he has. The dissonance that was set up by his social transition.

Social transition is a strategy with an expiry date. It’s a short-term strategy with long term consequences. It works so easily for young children – pre-puberty it truly is impossible to tell for many whether they are male or female. The young child who is transitioned is treated by everyone as the opposite sex, and because they are small, they believe that this is how things are. Everyone is happy and the social transition provides short term relief all round. Child is happy, parents are happy, we all celebrate. But in the long term, it creates a problem which is not reversible. Puberty is going to arrive, and the child who has been socially transitioned is put in an impossible situation. They’ve been told all their life they ARE a boy (and that anyone who says they aren’t is transphobic), but their body knows otherwise.

A childhood is not reversible.  What we grow up being told in our childhood matters for our whole lives. It forms part of how we understand ourselves and our place in the world. A child who grows up being told they are a boy whilst knowing they are a girl will only have that experience. They can’t go back and do it again.

Joseph grows up and for several happy years there are no apparent problems. His parents get heavily involved in the trans community and feel very connected and affirmed in their decision. Joseph loves his short hair and football boots.  He’s ‘one of the gang’.  Then he gets to age 10, and his breasts start to grow.

He’s spent the last six years being told he is a boy. There has been no preparation at all in his childhood for the fact of his biological femaleness. No identifying with female role models, no conversations about what puberty means for girls. That has been something to be denied and ignored, or not talked about at all. And now his breasts start to grow. 

This is a tender and vulnerable time for all young girls, but for those who have been told they are boys it can be devastating. Social transition has worked for Joseph due to the fact that pre-pubescent boys are very similar to pre-pubescent girls, but now things are going to change. Joseph’s distress becomes intense. They hate their bodies, they hate themselves, they can’t bear the idea of periods and curves.  They start to talk about self-harm, of cutting themselves, because they just can’t bear how strong their feelings are.

Of course they can’t. They were set up for this, right from that day when they were proudly taken to the barber to have a ‘boy’s cut’.  Social transition works so well in the short term, but in the long term there is no way it won’t cause worse distress. Because a childhood isn’t reversible, and this child has spent theirs being told they are of the opposite sex. The time they could have had getting used to their biological reality, they have spent hiding it. They could have been learning that they can express themselves in any way that they want, whether they are female or male – but instead they have been learning to deny the biological reality of their body.

Now of course, the distress Joseph feels is seen as gender dysphoria rearing its head again. ‘We were right’ the parents say to each other, ‘Look at how distressed he is about puberty, imagine if we’d been dealing with this for the last six years’.  Now is when the suicidal thoughts start, because the child is faced with an unbelievable reality – they cannot simply go on being treated as a boy, when they have the body of a girl. Their parents can no longer make everything alright. Of course they are upset. Of course they feel intense distress. Of course they are desperate for puberty blockers. They want to go back to how things were. They have been sold a lie and so has everyone around them. 

What’s the alternative? Parents tell me their child was adamant, there was just no other choice. They had to transition them, otherwise….what?   

Transitioning is an adult solution, and it’s an explanation our generation has found for children who defy stereotypes. The child behaves in a certain way and adults say ‘trans’ and act accordingly. Adults feel relieved because they feel they’ve found the solution – and they are scared of what might happen to their child as they grow older, because they’ve been told that the consequences of not transitioning a child are disaster. Usually suicide.  

There really is little evidence for this. 

There is, to my knowledge, no research which looks at outcomes for children who are supported to express themselves however they want, but whilst still being referred to by their biological sex. We had several children like this in my primary school. One of them played football, hung out with the boys and even wore a boy’s swimming costume for school swimming. I was confused. I went home that day and told my mother that Emma can be a boy’s name too. 

Later I discovered that Emma was in fact a girl who looked like a boy, deliberately. She and I become good friends. She was supported to express herself however she wanted, but no one transitioned her.   She navigated puberty much like the rest of us. She’s a mother now, and works as a tree surgeon.  

I think of Emma when I see these distressed teenagers, and I wonder what our generation has forgotten that our parents knew. For they held onto reality for us, when we were too young to know the difference.  

So I tell parents to take their children’s gender distress seriously, but also lightly. Take their desires to cut their hair, to wear Spiderman t-shirts and to play football seriously, but hold for them your knowledge that this doesn’t make them a boy. They don’t know that. Young children think that the external stuff IS what makes a girl or boy. They don’t know any different.  

We do. We need to hold that space for them. The space where they can do anything they want, be anything they want – but not change their sex or fly to Mars, because neither of those is actually possible. We can imagine it, fantasise about it, but we need to hold that space for them. Because they don’t know.

There’s an alternative universe where Joanna’s parents cut her hair and bought her a Spiderman shirt, but didn’t post it on Facebook. Where they told Joanna that of course they can call her Jo if she wants, she can play football all she wants, and she’ll always be their daughter because we can’t change sex.  That’s a world where Joanna’s parents let her be herself without bringing in adult explanations such as, ‘You’re trans’, and let her grow up and discover the reality of her female body. A body which is hard to live in, and which most women wish wasn’t so messy and inconvenient at some point – but which is her birth right, and which is the only body she will ever have. In this universe, Joanna’s mother and sister tell her about puberty, because no one has to deny her female biology. No one tells her that she needs drugs to stop her going through the ‘wrong puberty’.

When Jo reaches puberty she’s not overjoyed about the changes, just as many girls aren’t. She doesn’t like her new breasts much and she really isn’t impressed with periods. But she doesn’t feel that this developing body is deeply at odds with the person she is, because she’s spent her childhood knowing that she is a girl, and that she can express herself however she wants. She doesn’t feel she must get rid of the indicators of femaleness, in order to continue the illusion that everyone had created around Joseph. She hasn’t been disconnected from the reality of herself as female.   

Social transition isn’t reversible, because what we tell our children for years can’t be reversed. When we disconnect them from their biological sex, we set up patterns of denial and secrets. We set them up to hate their bodies at puberty, to beg for blockers and binders, because for years we told them they could change sex, and they believed us. They are desperate to go back to the years when no one knew any different, but that time will never come again. Time is not reversible.

They don’t know any different. They think that could go on for ever, that they will wake up one day transformed into a male body. They live in a world of fantasy and magic. We know better. We owe it to them to hold that space.

We need to tell them that they can dream of being everything they want to be, express themselves however they want, but we know they can’t change their sex. We have to tell them this, even if they find it distressing. We need to be able to hold that distress and listen, whilst holding onto reality. For our only other option is to betray our children’s trust in us, and the consequences of that will be lifelong.

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This Post Has 28 Comments

  1. Erin

    This is the voice of an honest and skilled clinician. The idea of holding space for people who are struggling with difficult situations is the definition of safety in a counselling relationship; the same idea applies to feeling safe in a family. Children crave boundaries because they create safety within a massive world that is still a mystery to them. The lies that are being foisted onto parents with good intentions are dangerous and destructive because they undermine and destabilise the development of children’s inner worlds and how they relate to the external world. The well-researched and repeatedly confirmed understanding of how children develop has been hijacked and upended by activist professors, organisations and practitioners in the science of psychology. It is vital that clinicians like this author continue to hold and practice the truth of what science has shown us about human development. I happened upon a little blurb about the celebrated Jazz Jennings recently. He is suffering from depression and has gained a lot of weight. Of course, none of that is related to his very public transition. Of course not…

  2. Scout

    An excellent article which should be required reading for everyone. Great to read such common sense.
    Bring back tomboys. I’m still a tomboy at 68 and a grandma with a granddaughter I can see will be a tomboy too. No trans nonsense for her.
    Also a phobia is an irrational fear. It’s not irrational for a woman to feel unease or even fear when they see a man dressed as a woman, particularly in a supposedly all female space. In my book there’s no such thing a transphobia.

  3. Emm

    Thank you so much for such an interesting, insightful and heart rending article.

    I really hope that the more thoughtful and intelligent psychology of the type you advocate is able to operate openly soon, before too many more children are damaged.

  4. E R Kendrich

    Excellent article – absolute common sense.

  5. Camille

    So well said. The madness must stop! What will these children think in the future? Your mention of Facebook got me thinking how many parents of young children grew up with social media. How much of their own identity and need for thumbs-ups plays into their willingness to give in to the trans myth. A very very sad and destructive ideology that I hope goes away soon!

  6. Sarah

    Absolutely heartbreaking to know this is happening to children. What a well written piece. Thank you!

  7. Lucy

    This is a fantistic article! Thank you so much for posting this! You have so clearly articulated the terrible disruption of innocent childhood with the gender identity insanity and the irrationality of the radical ‘anti-transphobia’ medical/industrial cult. Thank you for your insights, and especially for explaining the pressures on mental health professionals. You must be a female, based on your so accurate description of girls experiencing puberty with ambivalence toward emerging breasts and periods. I know of no one who experienced anything positive about puberty. Most girls experienced massive disruption of their lives and relationships, with decidedly negative developments on many levels of their lives. Bravo for your knowledge, experience, insights and excellent writing skills. Thank you!

  8. Kathy Salaman

    Excellent article – thank you!

    Of course, we now live in a world where adults other than parents can perpetuate the fantasy, even without the parents’ permission or knowledge.

  9. Evelyn Strasburger

    That’s sad Lucy, that you know no-one who felt positively about female puberty. I experienced mine in the mid nineteen-seventies. When I had my first pubic hair I was overjoyed. As I grew breasts I was so proud. With my period it was a rite of passage – I was now really a woman! No shame. Yes inconvenience and aches and moods, but I never felt anything but privileged to be a woman.

    What is the difference? What has happened? The misogyny run riot that is the internet? American imported fear of sex which perverts it to porn? The cult of the perfectly perfect man – enabler?

    I perfectly understand the fear of girls when they become women. Who wouldn’t fear the extreme and degrading expectations of the boys and men who run the world and the punishments freely dished out if you don’t meet them? As Monty Python said, ’”Run away! Run away!”

    1. Lalla

      I was so glad to see my teen daughter being delighted by her developing body and taking pimples, hair and periods in her stride, the exact opposite to me. Like you I was a ‘tomboy’. I was devastated at the imposition of womanhood on me, with all the rigid and frigid expectations you’d expect in a buttoned up Presbyterian family, plus the leering glances, the friendships that fizzled out with the boys that were my childhood friends, and all the girls living for male attention and not much else. If ‘trans’ was a ‘thing’ then at age 11, I would have jumped on that bandwagon and not looked back. But -wow- what would I have missed out on! At 53 I am so glad and grateful for all that my womanhood has given me, and I wouldn’t hand it over for anything. I am not “cis” anything, and I am not a “gender critical” anything. We’re women, and we’re feminists, and we’re scientists. The totalitarians can call us what they want. They can put the cage over our heads full of hungry rats, but they won’t change these facts. We need to speak up and stop being polite, while this generation of entitled middle class kids vapidly hand over their rights that were so hard won by working class women

  10. Bob

    Thank you for a fantastic article.

    I think there may be similar issues for young women who go thru ROGD in mid to late teens. They can go thru collage as trans and surround themselves by the rainbow crowd and alienate previous friends who are not believers. Their first job will inevitably be with an organization that uses its inclusivity to promote itself.

    To turn round at in ones early 20s when all ones friend and colleagues are heavily invested in your trans ID is must be terrifying.

  11. Jen

    Great Article!! My daughter thinks she is trans, and I’m treated like a psychopath by social workers and therapist for not going along with living in their make believe world. I Love my daughter for who she is. I will not change her name or go along with the pronoun game. If there are any more parents going through this, Please email me. I would love to have a logical conversation with someone who understands. Thank You! t.micheal63@yahoo.com

  12. Jen

    Thank you for this. It’s so very obvious but sadly needs to be said. Kids come in all shapes and sizes, passions, desires, and creativity. Let them be kids. Don’t put a label on them that’s so difficult to peel off if they’ve been socially transitioned. Much harder than pulling off a super hero cape once they’ve moved on from or outgrown.

  13. Luka

    Desperately caught up in this with dogs 14yo daughter. No idea where to go ( medically ) for help as the whole system seems to support this complete irrationality. No signs before starting secondary school, now 5 girls in one friendship group all identifying as boys. Scary stuff. Looks like everyone knew, except us parents, and were encouraging her on this path.,including counsellor at her school, pastoral support worker, senior leadership team and the INL. No one let us know!!? What is going on in the world. So distressing. Seriously believe that her late diagnosed adhd and the rejection of her peers through primary school has caused her to reject her femaleness. Where are the studies on this? Who’s to say that she would have faired any better with male puberty. Perhaps a bit of romantic idealism considering she’s at an all girls school. How do I find her a therapist who will help to guide her through this without glamorising and promoting the trans perspective. Prior to puberty she had shown no traits or signs whatsoever of wanting to be a boy.

    1. Mark

      It’s hard to find a therapist with the views you wish because often they are now mandated by their profession to only go along the line of trans ideology or they can lose their license
      Scary stuff


  14. Barbara

    Thank you for writing this powerful post about an important safeguarding issue.
    Children really need their parents to be able to tell the truth. Make believe is fine but our biology is immutable and it’s both dishonest and cruel to pretend that sex is something you can choose.

  15. Rob

    Thanks for this common sense that we can all act and be whatever we want but that does not mean we can, or even should think we can, change sex. There is nothing wrong with being a girl who likes wrestling, rugby, mud and cars nor a boy who likes makeup, clothes, talking or whatever stereotypical behaviour society allocates to each gender. Stereotypes are broadly true but nobody ever pretends they are universal truths, otherwise they would be facts not stereotypes.

    In fact as the French say ‘Vive la difference’. We all benefit from having girls and boys, girly girls and manly boys and tom boys and effeminate men.

  16. John Dimo

    I would love to know WHO wrote this? Would like to be able to understand who they are and what are their credentials & credibility. I think its a useful article, but feels like an opinion piece rather than a piece written in a clinical, researched, cited – kind of manner. I wish it had a bit more clinical evidence presented, as matching such well-spoken truths written here with scientific rigor would enhance the overall argument. (I am a parent with a trans-identifying kid and agree with the overall sentiment of this article and that of many of the comments)

    1. Transgender Trend

      The writer is a registered clinical psychologist with over 15 years of experience, but unfortunately has to remain anonymous. Professionals are at real risk of losing their jobs and livelihoods if they question the prevailing methods and ideology. We feel that professional opinion from ‘on the ground’ experience and professional expertise is important, but if you are looking for more academic articles you might find SEGM useful, or this page from Stats for Gender: https://www.statsforgender.org/social-transition/ See also our page Social Transition.

      1. Mick

        “ Professionals are at real risk of losing their jobs and livelihoods if they question the prevailing methods and ideology. ”

        I have to stop right here and say that this statement is not only true, but also absolutely HORRIFYING.
        We are living in a society right now where parents, mental health & other medical professionals, lawyers, educators and more understand that if they speak WHAT THEY KNOW TO BE TRUE they can be literally shunned. In both their personal AND professional lives.
        Researchers who present the ‘wrong’ data will not have their work published in SCIENTIFIC journals.
        We are living in a dangerous and dystopian era.

    2. George Q Tyrebyter

      You need to actually open your eyes. The “research” in this area is complete garbage, start to finish. Clinical observations are legitimate. The climate in the “helping professions” today is not good. They buy the trans lie. Getting a study like you suggest is not possible, really, due to the lying and faking of the gender-dysphoric persons.

      I hope you are not affirming your deluded child. It sound like you are. That’s a shame, really. Gender-dysphoric kids are deluded, and if affirmed will go on cross-sex hormones. Your child will be sterile in short order, and will probably have sexual dysfunctions. These are facts.

    3. Marsh

      They are a practicing therapist. Read carefully. The cliff notes: to raise a child as something they are not damages that child. They trust the parent. Imagine being told as a child that you were black (maybe your hero scientist was black) mostly because you were confused about your for lack of a better word race. One day it dawns on your you are asian. You are a 22 ur old that thinks they are black. NOW GO UNDO ALL THAT CONFUSION.

  17. Mary

    This is so jacked up. People put it in kids mi ds that they are trans. I pwrsonally believe this is going on because of the parents. They do not get whst they was at birth so they tell themselves thst the children are trans to make them feel better and try to brain wash them in believing they are the oppostive sex. Then the children are the ones who suffer. The bible says suffer not the lil children of the world.

  18. Sara maimon

    Very moving article. However when i try to share with others, it lacks credibility due to being anonymous. I do hope the author will share her real name eventually

  19. Mich

    Brilliant article, thank you. Deeply concerning that laws against so-called conversion therapy (which operate in my home state amongst many others) effectively prevent therapists from providing meaningful support to these kids. It’s appalling. Especially since it seems so clear to me that the transitioning of young girls who are tomboys is a form of conversion therapy itself (although no one involved will admit it): it “disappears” the girls who look most likely to grow up into butch lesbians. If my own gorgeous butch partner was a child today (instead of in the 70s when she had the good fortune to grow up) the gender borg would certainly have come for her. It’s distressing to think about.

  20. Colin Bradley

    A very wise psychologist. It’s a travesty that a stupid cult is preventing such professionals from doing their jobs.

  21. Lalla

    This house of cards is about to come tumbling down, but we all need to stop being afraid to speak out. Post articles like this on Facebook. Share great podcasts (BBC’s “The Tavistock” and “Nolan Investigates Stonewall” and “the Witch Trials of JK Rowling”). Read “Material Girls” by Kathleen Stock. Shore yourself up with facts, so that you can articulate your views and leave no room for accusations of ‘transphobia’ etc.

  22. Olson

    This is a great article. I agree 100%. What I want to know now is, what if the parent unfortunately listened to therapists and shrinks, socially transitioned their child, and doesn’t want to use the hormones and puberty blockers? How do we undo the damage while there is still time before the child turns 18? I am in desperate need of help and nobody has an answer. I am just broken for listening to the smart people and going against my gut. However, as distressful as it is, I will not promote hormones and now I am in a fight for my daughter’s life with zero help. Please, let me know how I can undo this before she is 18. I have 3 years.

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